Isolation
When you learn to be self-independent to the extreme, well you turn to no one but yourself. You turn to isolation. You take the hard way and stubbornly refuse to ask for help. You think you can figure it out. Or that you know what’s right or what’s best. That eventually, you’ll come across the situation.
You find yourself alone in the expanse sea of your thoughts. You allow yourself to start believing in lies. You push everyone away. Refusing to let anyone’s voice be louder than the one in your head. Because you created in your mind, you don’t need anyone.
But the thing is we do. We all need someone. We all need others. We all need Jesus. We need God.
Though in blindness, we believed the lie that says otherwise. Opening us to the one that comes to destroy. Who lies and seeks to turn you from where you belong.
I was there.
Isolation doesn’t do anything good. Nor should it be called you time because it’s not. Alone time is taking a moment to gather yourself…to destress. It is a break before heading back into the world.
Isolation is the choice to separating yourself completely from the world and refusing to go back. Refusing to move from the bubble as a way to protect yourself. Or maybe there is something else underlying. Whether it stems from a fear of man or something else.
See, I turned inward because I refused to let anyone else in. I refused to let anyone get to know the real me. I put friends at an arm’s distance and refused to tell them much besides the superficial details of my life. Because I was afraid of being rejected and abandoned. I shut myself away in my room under the guise of being a homebody. An identity I soon took on, using it as an excuse to never go out. Eventually fine tuning into social anxiety that overtook me. That made so afraid of going out because that meant I was opening myself up to the world again. Which was the last time I ever wanted to do.
It has been in isolation that allowed myself to be open to the spirit of the world and other spirits. It made me perfect prey for the enemy to come in and lie to me. Lies I slowly started to believe.
Genesis 2:18
Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone
